Think of Me

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me

Flowers fades,
The fruits of summer fade,
They have their seasons, so do we
but please promise me, that sometimes
you will think of me!

Louis Vuitton Fall/Winter 2009-2010 featuring Madonna

I'm Going Slightly Mad

I went to see a doctor today as was experiencing some dizzy spells. Got out of the doc's room with high blood pressure, stress and mild depression. It took me my surprise that these symptoms had not occurred to me in anyway. Not a sign. Msn Brian on this. Was surprised too.

2 phrases have been playing in my mind which came from both the doc and Brian. "Talk to your friends more often" and "Why stress yourself". It hit me kind of hard as I was mentioned this to a taxi driver over the weekend bout the life of a Singaporean. I said out LOUD "Uncle, I feel stress is self inflicted". There you have it. Think just got slap ob the face hard.

I did a self evaluation on my way home from office. I though that all seemed well. I mean yeah most of go thru certain phases in life which I may have brushed aside many times ... way too many times. Suppression to the maximum. A test to my level of patience and endurance. I do agree I am in difficult times on a personal level but I always thought to always have this notion "You screwed it up yourself you solve it" Well I stand by it. Is it wrong? Should I talk to it with my friends? I don't see a need to. Can they help? Well I don't think so. It's my problem not theirs.

Cynicism and harsh realism had gotten me into this state? Or it's "you reap what you sow"?

Doc gave me Lexotan, a relaxant, to make me sleep well. It's been 2 hours I don't even feel the effect. Screw it .... maybe I am getting screwed in the head

A.W.O.L

I want to run away from this place
I want to be away from me
I try to not think about ways to leave
but those are the only ways I see

I write this all down trying to feeling better
I write this all down to get it out of me
but nothing sounds like it will help
nothing will help but to leave

but I can't do that
I can't run away and be free
because all my problems will follow
because all my problems are within me.

Chinese Proverb

“Tell Me and I will forget
Show Me and I may remember
Involve me and I will understand”

I Want to Know What Love Is

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
I through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile