Epilogue 2008

This is the day where most of us take a step back & look back the things that happen to them throughout this year. Be it happy or sad it's been hell of a ride I must say.

Students will be able to say 'Yes I worked hard and did well' or 'No I didn't but I going to work harder next year'. Adults will be more concern on their rice bowl as we were hit by an economic crisis at the 4rd quarter of 2008. Worrying day by day whether they are able to hold on to their jobs for another day.

I am in such a category but I looking at it at a more holistic approach. I have taken this break to evaluate and find out what I want in my next job. I realise I had been working for the sake of working. Pay the bills, shopping, having a ifestyle. However don't we all .... On a personal level I am glad I survived another year.

Nevertheless, let's savour the good times we had this year. As for the bad times, well JUST FUCK IT!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! Yes Sonny we didn't forget you at all!!

Imagine

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Sit Down

Those who feel the breath of sadness
Sit down next to me
Those who find they’re touched by madness
Sit down next to me
Those who find themselves ridiculous
Sit down next to me
In love, in fear, in hate, in tears

Gold In Them Hills

I know it doesn't seem that way
But maybe it's the perfect day
Even though the bills are piling
Maybe Lady Luck ain't smiling

But if we only open our eyes
We'd see the blessings in disguise
That all the rain clouds are fountains
Though our troubles seem like mountains

Every now and then life says:
Where do you think you're going so fast?
We're apt to think it's cruel, but sometimes
It's a case of cruel to be kind

And if we get up off our knees
Why then we'd see the forest for the trees
and we'd see the new sun rising
Over the hills and horizon

A word or two, my friend
There's no telling how the day might end
We'll never know until we see

That there's gold in them hills
There's gold in them hills
So don't lose heart
So don't lose faith
Give the day a chance to start

I Should be So Lucky

It was 1988 that this song 1st released. 20 years on I still love this song!!

The Masterplan

Take the time to make some sense
Of what you want to say
And cast your words away upon the waves
Bring them back with Acquiesce
On a ship of hope today
And as they fall upon the shore
Tell them not to fear no more
Say it loud and sing it proud

I'm not saying right is wrong
It's up to us to make
The best of all things that come our way
And all the things that came have past
The answer's in the looking glass
There's four and twenty million doors
Down life's endless corridor
Say it loud and sing it proud

And they... Will dance if they want to dance
Please brother take a chance
You know they're gonna go
Which way they wanna go
All we know is that we don't know is gonna be
Please brother let it be
Life on the other hand won't let you understand
Why we're all part of the masterplan

Charles Caleb Colt

"Men spend their lives in anticipations,—

in determining to be vastly happy

at some period when they have time.

But the present time has one advantage over every other—

it is our own.

Past opportunities are gone,

future have not come.

We may lay in a stock of pleasures, a

s we would lay in a stock of wine;

but if we defer the tasting of them too long,

we shall find that both are soured by age"

こんにちは日本

"This is an email confirmation of your internet check-in. Your travel itinerary and details are listed below.

Flight Departs Arrives SQ0638 Singapore(SIN - Changi Intl Terminal 3) Tokyo(NRT - Narita)21 Nov 2008, 23:45 22 Nov 2008, 07:15

Passenger Name and Seat Number SQ06382. MR ALVINBOONTSEN NG 75H"

But the exchange sucks man................!!!!

Osim Corporate Triathalon

Went down to East Coast Park to support Kelvin earlier this month. Lots of various well known corporations took part in this annual event. The park was wet and soggy but the spirits were high.

Huge doggie woggie

"Y M C A"

Kelvin with his machine

Very spirited people taking part. I salute them

Thought

"The Warrior of Light lets go of the idea of days and hours

in order to pay more attention to the moment."

Attitude

There once was a woman who woke up one morning, looked in the mirror, and noticed she had only three hairs on her head.

Well," she said, "I think I'll braid my hair today?" So she did and she had a wonderful day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and saw that she had only two hairs on her head.

"H-M-M," she said, "I think I 'll part my hair down the middle today?" So she did and she had a grand day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed that she had only one hair on her head.

"Well," she said, "today I'm going to wear my hair in a pony tail." So she did and she had a fun, fun day.

The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed that there wasn't a single hair on her head.

"YEA!" she exclaimed, "I don't have to fix my hair today!"


Attitude is everything.

Its all about attitude, if only I could always remember!!!Attitude

Food Court Musical

Those Good Old Dreams

As a child I was known for makes-believing
All alone I created fantasies
As I grew people called it self deceiving
But my heart helped me hold the memories

Aries - The Daredevil

Energetic.
Adventurous and spontaneous.
Confident and enthusiastic.
Fun.
Loves a challenge.
EXTREMELY impatient.
Sometimes selfish.
Short fuse. (easily angered.)
Lively, passionate, and sharp wit.
Outgoing.
Lose interest quickly - easily bored.
Egotistical.
Courageous and assertive.
Tends to be physical and athletic.

Aiyo .......... strike toto also not so 'zhun' as this lor..........

Circle Game

And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
Were captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look behind from where we came
And go round and round and round in the circle game

Mane Man - The Life & Styles Of Shunji Matsuo

I have not been going out much since I had not been working for a while and living on a shoe string budget and being invited to an event is a good excuse to come out of hibernation and just 'glam' for a while.

Being a long time customer with my tresses under Mr Shunji Matsuo , I was invited to his 10th Anniversary party held at the National Musuem. Spotted a few Mediacorp celebrities, Project SuperStars 2 contestants ( clueless why they were there though ), and of course some ambassadors and their spouses who are Shunji's long time customers.

A showcase of haute coiffure encapsulating 5 decades of hairstyles beginning form the 60's. Clothes worn were designed by Thomas Wee who also worked with Shunji in the most recent SFF earlier this year.

As I always say, pictures speaks a thousand words ......

Lina, Jade Seah & Me

Alvin Ng & Elvin Ng

Work it Baby

Strike a pose

Me & Mr Shunji Matsuo

Me & Michelle Chong ( emcee for the nite )

Take My Picture

I dont believe in
In your sanctity
You privacy
I dont believe in
Sanctity
A hypocrisy
Could everyone agree that
No one should be left alone
Could everyoone agree that
They should not be left alone
And I feel like a newborn
Kicking and screaming

Zahir

"Love is an untamed force.
When we try to control it, it destroys us.
When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us.
When we try to understand it, it leaves us lost and confused."

Breaking News

Singapore Health Authority Warning:

All men are advised not to suck China girls' breast

as the milk may contain melamine

Cast No Shadow

Here's a thought for every man
Who tries to understand what is in his hands
He walks along the open road of Love & Life
surviving if he can

Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
Chained to all the places that he never wished to say
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
and as faced the sun he cast no shadow

Drifting

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone,
I questionJust where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

6.9.1976

A special day for a lost dear friend....
Happy Birthday Sonny

恰似你的温柔

某年某月的某一天,

就象一张破碎的脸.

难以开口道再见,

就让一切走远.

这不是一件容易的事,

我们却都没有哭泣.

让它淡淡地来,

让它好好地去.

到如今年复一年,

我不能停止怀念.

怀念你,怀念从前.

但愿那海风再起,

只为那浪花的手,

恰似你的温柔.

Smother or Smoulder

smother> verb: cause to feel trapped and oppressed

smoulder> verb: feel intense and barely suppressed anger, hatred, lust, etc.

Apparently I was told to smoulder but I ended up looking ..... I don't know .... Do you?

Trust

For too many days now
I've wandered the city streets & Back Bay
Hoping to find the Right Way
Instead I met Emptiness & Pain

For too many months now
I've begged for Patience & Strength
Searching for Advice & a trustful friend
And ran into something I can't understand

For too many years now
I've prayed for Truth & Happiness
Yet I'm still searching for Peace & Forgiveness
Lost into the mist of night of ghosts & promises

Fragile

If blood will flow when fresh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrows rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay

Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetimes argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are

Let it Go

As you go through this day, make an effort to notice one small, insignificant little frustration that you'd normally get upset about. Then do yourself a favor, and simply let it go.

Experience, in that small way, the freedom of being in control of the way you feel. And realize that you can extend that control to every situation in which you find yourself. The little things most certainly do not have to get you down. And neither do the big things. At any moment, the way you feel is the way you choose to feel. The way you respond is the way you choose to respond.

Do you really wish to be under the control of those who do not have your best interest at heart? Of course you don't. Base your feelings on the unique, valuable person you know you are, and on the positive possibilities available to you. Feel the genuine greatness of this moment, and you can bring it to life. ~ Ralph Marston~

The more we Get together

Oh, the more we get together,
Together, together,
Oh, the more we get together,
The happier we’ll be.

For your friends are my friends,
And my friends are your friends.
Oh, the more we get together,
The happier we’ll be!

8.8.8

HUAT AH!!!!!

Not As We

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure unconvincing
This faint and shaky hour

Gun shy and quivering
Timid without a hand
Feign brave with steel intent
little and hardly here

Eyes wet toward
Wide open frayed
If God's taking bets
I pray He wants to lose

Day one day one start over again
Step one step one
I'm barely making sense just yet
I'm faking it til I'm pseudo making it
From scratch begin again
but this time I as I
And not as we

45 lessons of life

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11 . Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29 What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

好想说出的话 现在你过的好吗

Everyday Faces

Everyday faces that say hello
Everyday faces that come and go
Everyday faces that stay the same
Everyday day after day

Was a time all we could do was try
Was a time when we could say goodbye
Now you find you never do a thing the same
Does today feel the same way

Now you're looking at me
Like I'm so passe
I'm a disgrace
Just an everyday face

A side of me

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	10
Acts of Service:	7
Physical Touch:	6
Words of Affirmation:	5
Receiving Gifts:	2

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

Take the Quiz!
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Won't it be nice

I sit with filled frames
And my books and my dogs at my feet
My friends by my side
My past in a heap
Thrown out most of my things
Only kept what I need to carve
Something consistent and notably me

People are People

"People are like stained-glass windows.

They sparkle and shine when the sun is out,

but when the darkness sets in,

their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within."

1 + 3

I just realise that it's been a year since I started this blog. When I 1st started it, it will so filled with anticipation & excitment. I was telling myself that "I AM SO GONNA BITCH" A blog filled with insane inane randy randomness thoughtless thoughts lively life. I ran through the entries from the beginning & was filled with morbidity lost sadness emptiness angstness. Nothing to shout out loud & say "Whoa Ho" but more like "FUCK is life really that screwed?"

I lost a close one & gained & regained many. Should I say "thank you" or should I say "hope this will last" or should I just comfort myself and say "it is life"..... I don't know. Maybe my perpectives had changed so quickly that I do not even realise it. I don't know.

As I close my eyes & surrender to oblivious slumber would I fall into an abyss of lost thoughts or would I stick in a vortex of infinite boredom or would I wake up feeling the way I want to be or the way I never get to be. I don't know.

Happy Anniversary CHips....

How to Disappear Completely

That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey

In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah it's gone

I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

Lost

Just because I'm losing

Doesn't mean I'm lost

Doesn't mean I'll stop

Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting

Doesn't mean I'm hurt

Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve

No better and no worse

I just got lost

Every river that I've tried to cross

Every door I ever tried was locked

And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off

Alone

Lying, thinking
Last night
How to find my soul a home
Where water is not thirsty
And bread loaf is not stone
I came up with one
I don't believe I'm wrong
That nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone.

June

Alone

Lost

Vexed

Inertia

Nondescript

Bruce & Kael Wedding - Part 3

We adjourned to the Post Bar after the wedding for a simple post-wedding celebration. Bruce didn't join the fun coz he was so wasted that he crashed after the wedding. Well the party went on without the groom. Lotsa bubbly lotsa bitching lotsa cam whoring ....

Me & Yvonne

Me & Joelle

Us looking hmmm...

Me & Lix

Me & Amelia Kael Constance Chua

Bruce & Kael Wedding - Part 2

The wedding dinner was held @ Asian Civilisations Museum. Nice place. It was not a regular 9 course Chinese dinner. It was pretty free & easy. The couple wanted a dinner which was not stifling, the freedom to mingle with guests & friends. I should say this is the best dinner I had ever attended. Took lots of photos but I cannot really post them all. Skali jam lah....

Our pretty receptionists

Me, Steve, Bruce & Ben

Bruce seranading Kael. So sweet

Wendy's speech that brought tears to our eyes

Us the cam whores

Bruce & Kael Wedding - Part 1

Attended Bruce & Kael's Wedding last Saturday which so happened to be the long HOT weekend. Church wedding was held @ Church of the Holy Family @ Katong. The mass was sweet & simple. The couple had the word "NERVOUS" stamped all over their faces. Happy feeling ... kinda miss that feeling. We then rushed home after the reception for the dinner.

The stained glass @ Holy Family

The cute page boy & sweet flower girl

The bridesmaids

The Blessed Couple

Some of us with the couple

Anticipation

A man

"A man who fears nothing is a man who loves nothing;

and if you love nothing,

what joy is there in your life"

Do Not Weep

Do not stand at my grave and weep,

I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.

I am the diamond glint on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain.

I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush,

I am the swift, uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circling flight.

I am the soft starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.

I am not there, I do not sleep.

Do not stand at my grave and cry.

I am not there, I did not die!

Thought for the night

"Tomorrow night is nothing but one long sleepless wrestle

with yesterday's omissions and regrets. "

Bye Bye

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Many Rivers

Many rivers to cross
But I can't seem to find my way over
Wandering I am lost
As I travel along the white cliffs of dover

Many rivers to cross
And it's only my will that keeps me alive
I've been licked, washed up for years
And I merely survive because of my pride

William Faulkner

"Given a choice between grief and nothing,

I'd choose grief

Given the choice between the experience of pain and nothing,

I'd choose pain"

SEX-y in the city

A fashion show that "WOW" me since Friday until now......

MARCUS

A model in his late 30's that put many to shame

These pictures are about 3% to 5% of the total pictures that I took in total. Girls ......... BEG ME!............ ;p

32

To my beloved ones,

I would like to say that I am very...:

Blessed to be able wake up for 32 years & ready for more.

Blessed to have you, my friends, to be able to bask in your love & friendship

Blessed to have my loved ones sheltering me under thier wings of love

Lastly to Sonny,

Blessed to share your love for many years. Everything I do fills me with of your love, your smile, your zest, & many many other things that I have learnt through you!!! Bless me with your love from above.

Joke of the Day

Question: What do you get when you found a piece of plastic in the spinach & mushroom quiche while eating it?

Answer: A beverage voucher that last for 6 months

Kodak Moment

Once

Part of me
Has Died
And won't return
And part of me
Wants to hide
The part that's burned

Part of me
Has died
To watch it burn
And the heart of me
Has tried
But look what it's become

In the End

"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies,

but the silence of our friends"

The Long & Winding Road

The long and winding road
That leads to your door
Will never disappear
I've seen that road before
It always leads me here
Lead me to your door

The wild and windy night
That the rain washed away
Has left a pool of tears
Crying for the day
Why leave me standing here

Let me know the way
Many times I've been alone
And many times Ive cried
Any way you'll never know
The many ways I've tried

Can't Hold On

Someone cries and it washes the street with tears
But when they are mine, they collect in my head for years
Rain or shine, still I'm standing on all I said'
Cause it's in my soul, carry on when the feeling's dead

Someone dies late at night and I never know
And even if I did, so afraid of the face I'd show
I feel trapped and enslaved to this dark contrast
Need a feeling now, give me something that's going to last

Enjoy the Silence

Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable

How Men Are

Perspective
It's no mystery
What you don't know always gets you
It will hurt you and desert you
So you'd better see
That it's a damage ever done by degrees
And some will take eternity to believe

'Cos love is a giving with no need of return
It lends itself to everything
And maybe one day man will see
That love is a lesson money never taught us to learn
Love is the power to act
Without the premise that there's nothing for free

And sometimes when we're just getting by and getting along
It's like we're scared to see that something is wrong

Let the Bitaches Unite

I went to a gathering that took not 16 mins, not 16 weeks, not 16 mths but 16 years to organise. The changes that took 16 years to say, see & bitch were all worth it!!! The dinner took place @ NUS Guild House @ Suntec City. It was rather 'atas' place thank goodness I wore a jacket over my T-shirt if not I will be wearing a hideous flowery "I love Haiwaii" shirt like what Kevin made to wear. Hahaha... no pics on that though. Ok Ok ....... pics pics pics time

Nicholas

Ken

Me

Kevin

Douglas

Gary

Raymond

Norman

Bitaches Rawks

Thank you Kenneth for taking the initiative to get the ball rolling & thank you all for turning up & making this happen. I believe Kenneth has retired from organising after this MAJOR gathering

Strange Love

This morning in church, mummy asked me this question:

Mum: When is Good Friday?
Me: 21 March
Mum: I see....Is it a Monday or a Tuesday?
Me: .............

That's why I love my mummy so much!!

A tear

How long's a tear take to dry
When almighty brings is rain?
How long's a tear take to dry
And do tears, and do tears really stain?

Relish with love

Every year during the CNY period, I would gather with my beloved for a hearty dinner. This year I chose somewhere nice @ Bukit Timah area for dinner. It used to be always Marriott but it is also the place that we use to go to when Sonny was still alive. Relish @ Cluny Court was pretty nice though its menu was mainly burgers ( sigh the distance I have to run to burn them off ) No pics of the food though as we were bunch of hungry buggers but we still have time ALWAYS to take some pictures.

Alan & Veron

Ken & I

Alan & I

Veron & I

My beloved

This entry is dedicated to my dearest & unforgettable friend, Sonny. My eyes still well up with tears whenever I think of him .... even as I end this entry