Birthday wishes for a friend in Heaven

No cake or candles here today
Or presents for you to open
Just love from friends who want to say
Happy Birthday, and that we're hoping
Somehow you can see and know
That we have not forgotten you
That we still remember, even though
You've departed from our view
And if you see us here below
And wonder why we care
It's just because we want to show
That a part of you is still here
You live within each memory's heart
And so you remain, though we're apart

Hand on your Heart

Letter to a friend in Heaven

Hey 我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

Hey 我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话我应该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你

3/4

It's been a long while since I posted something in my blog. Well I cannot say that I have been busy not to do so. I just took time to reflect.

As many may not know, I have left my job. Before you go "Not again Alvin" I stand to my defence that is the last thing I would like to do at this point of time. I do agree that the job market is getting better. However I would have prefer finding a job of my preference while holding down to this job. Unfortunately, things did not work out and it was definately NOT my professionalism was in question.

I knew that this was a mistake. Many of my colleagues did warned me. I guess the obligation of a payer of debts cannot really afford not to work made me chose this path. Now the truth has happen and I am now jobless. At times I feel like dosing myself in kerosene and set myself ablaze. At times I blame myself for all the things that had happen to me. At time I feel this is a godly sign. A sign from the BOSS above punishing me.

However I DO NOT regret leaving. I would like to blacklist them in a forum but DAMNED if I do. I have a phrase for them " What goes around comes around ". Mark my words!

Sometimes I wonder lf life is all about fallin down instead of rising up? Or is it boils down to contentment? Sometimes certain things cannot be rush?

Heavy In Your Arms

I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced a crown
I was a heavy heart to carry
My feet dragged across the ground
And he took me to the river
Where he slowly let me drown

This will be my last confession
"I love you" never felt like any blessing
Whisper it like it's a secret
Uttered to condemn the one who hears it
With a heavy heart

I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced a crown
I was a heavy heart to carry
But he never let me down
When he held me in his arms
My feet never touched the ground

Airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Happy

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy
Just wanna be happy