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It's been a long while since I posted something in my blog. Well I cannot say that I have been busy not to do so. I just took time to reflect.

As many may not know, I have left my job. Before you go "Not again Alvin" I stand to my defence that is the last thing I would like to do at this point of time. I do agree that the job market is getting better. However I would have prefer finding a job of my preference while holding down to this job. Unfortunately, things did not work out and it was definately NOT my professionalism was in question.

I knew that this was a mistake. Many of my colleagues did warned me. I guess the obligation of a payer of debts cannot really afford not to work made me chose this path. Now the truth has happen and I am now jobless. At times I feel like dosing myself in kerosene and set myself ablaze. At times I blame myself for all the things that had happen to me. At time I feel this is a godly sign. A sign from the BOSS above punishing me.

However I DO NOT regret leaving. I would like to blacklist them in a forum but DAMNED if I do. I have a phrase for them " What goes around comes around ". Mark my words!

Sometimes I wonder lf life is all about fallin down instead of rising up? Or is it boils down to contentment? Sometimes certain things cannot be rush?

Heavy In Your Arms

I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced a crown
I was a heavy heart to carry
My feet dragged across the ground
And he took me to the river
Where he slowly let me drown

This will be my last confession
"I love you" never felt like any blessing
Whisper it like it's a secret
Uttered to condemn the one who hears it
With a heavy heart

I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced a crown
I was a heavy heart to carry
But he never let me down
When he held me in his arms
My feet never touched the ground

Airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Happy

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy
Just wanna be happy

You Must Love Me

Why are you at my side?
How can I be any use to you now?
Give me a chance and I'll let you see how
Nothing has changed

Deep in my heart I'm concealing
Things that I'm longing to say
Scared to confess what I'm feeling
Frightened you'll slip away

Long Hard Road

There's a long hard road ahead
But a voice inside me said
You know there's something that you need to know
It's gonna be alright
Said there's something that you need to know
It's gonna be alright
And when in this life in this life
When I can only turn my chin
I know it's gonna be alright

When this big old town is closing in
And I have lost again
Here I could stay
But I'll keep moving on
Here I could stay but I'll keep moving on
Could be I won't be wrong
There's a long hard road ahead
But a voice inside me said
Said there's something that you need to know
It's gonna be alright

愛情釀的酒

有人告訴我愛情像杯酒
他還告訴我
是杯特製的酒

有人告訴我愛情像杯酒
他說喝它吧
別皺眉頭

因為它燙不了你的舌
燒不了你的口
喝吧
別考慮那麼多

它燙不了你的舌
燒不了你的口
喝醉吧
不要回頭
喝愛情釀的酒