Yesterdays

You might fall
You might send
this whole world inside your hands
You might kill
You will fight
but in the end there's only us

Shadows dream
of better things, than this
And the light that love can bring
You've missed

And it calls
For yesterday

Fuck You

Let's have a toast for the douchebags,
Let's have a toast for the assholes,
Let's have a toast for the scumbags,
Every one of them that I know
Let's have a toast to the jerkoffs
That'll never take work off

Birthday wishes for a friend in Heaven

No cake or candles here today
Or presents for you to open
Just love from friends who want to say
Happy Birthday, and that we're hoping
Somehow you can see and know
That we have not forgotten you
That we still remember, even though
You've departed from our view
And if you see us here below
And wonder why we care
It's just because we want to show
That a part of you is still here
You live within each memory's heart
And so you remain, though we're apart

Hand on your Heart

Letter to a friend in Heaven

Hey 我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

Hey 我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话我应该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你

3/4

It's been a long while since I posted something in my blog. Well I cannot say that I have been busy not to do so. I just took time to reflect.

As many may not know, I have left my job. Before you go "Not again Alvin" I stand to my defence that is the last thing I would like to do at this point of time. I do agree that the job market is getting better. However I would have prefer finding a job of my preference while holding down to this job. Unfortunately, things did not work out and it was definately NOT my professionalism was in question.

I knew that this was a mistake. Many of my colleagues did warned me. I guess the obligation of a payer of debts cannot really afford not to work made me chose this path. Now the truth has happen and I am now jobless. At times I feel like dosing myself in kerosene and set myself ablaze. At times I blame myself for all the things that had happen to me. At time I feel this is a godly sign. A sign from the BOSS above punishing me.

However I DO NOT regret leaving. I would like to blacklist them in a forum but DAMNED if I do. I have a phrase for them " What goes around comes around ". Mark my words!

Sometimes I wonder lf life is all about fallin down instead of rising up? Or is it boils down to contentment? Sometimes certain things cannot be rush?

Heavy In Your Arms

I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced a crown
I was a heavy heart to carry
My feet dragged across the ground
And he took me to the river
Where he slowly let me drown

This will be my last confession
"I love you" never felt like any blessing
Whisper it like it's a secret
Uttered to condemn the one who hears it
With a heavy heart

I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced a crown
I was a heavy heart to carry
But he never let me down
When he held me in his arms
My feet never touched the ground

Airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now

Happy

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy
Just wanna be happy

You Must Love Me

Why are you at my side?
How can I be any use to you now?
Give me a chance and I'll let you see how
Nothing has changed

Deep in my heart I'm concealing
Things that I'm longing to say
Scared to confess what I'm feeling
Frightened you'll slip away

Long Hard Road

There's a long hard road ahead
But a voice inside me said
You know there's something that you need to know
It's gonna be alright
Said there's something that you need to know
It's gonna be alright
And when in this life in this life
When I can only turn my chin
I know it's gonna be alright

When this big old town is closing in
And I have lost again
Here I could stay
But I'll keep moving on
Here I could stay but I'll keep moving on
Could be I won't be wrong
There's a long hard road ahead
But a voice inside me said
Said there's something that you need to know
It's gonna be alright

愛情釀的酒

有人告訴我愛情像杯酒
他還告訴我
是杯特製的酒

有人告訴我愛情像杯酒
他說喝它吧
別皺眉頭

因為它燙不了你的舌
燒不了你的口
喝吧
別考慮那麼多

它燙不了你的舌
燒不了你的口
喝醉吧
不要回頭
喝愛情釀的酒

Oh Wow

It has been a while since a proper entry was made... Many thoughts have been running through my mind but I am unable to put down in words. I would not call it a writer's block. It is just a series of emotions, thoughts, decisions, all coming at the same time that your brain is unable to decipher and process quickly. No wonder I feel daze at times whenever I am alone.

2010 ain't that fantastic so far. Was a victim of office consipracy and was ask to leave. Joined a company whose infamy spread far and wide in the industry. Everyday I ask myself " Why is this happening? Is it a sign of sorts? If it is, boy it sure ain't a good one! " There is sense of disheartenment I don't seem to overcome easily and it is giving me problems with sleep... Argh..

I really hope things will turn out better as the days pass... I am really getting real tired with the transitions. Transitions are good but I need good transitions not dramatized ones!

However under all these, something good happen.. I am attending cell group aka bible sharing at church. YES YES!! I am equally shocked myself. I shunned such activities like a plague. Though I approached this with a narrow mind, I must admit I was wrong. Young adults of today view on faith surpassed my intial thoughts. For that I am impressed though there are some zealous ones.. HAHA

I have so much to blog about but my eyes say STOP!! To be continued...

By the way... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! Glad to be alive ... :)

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Let the above speak for itself!! 'nuff said!!

This Too Shall Pass

Telephone

Style

"Former Japanese soccer player Hidetoshi Nakata is a guy who just channels cool in every inch of his body. From the aviator shades to the leather Balmain motocycle jacket, you just want to be him."

The End

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end
Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end
It hurts to set you free
But you'll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die
This is the end

The Dragon

Assertive, energetic and talented are all words to describe the Dragon personality. On the other hand, the Dragon has a tendency to be condescending and tactless without realising it. They generally enjoy robust health and tend to be very successful in anything they turn their hand to.

Forecast for 2010 Dragons will find the quick pace of 2010 very much to their liking and they will be keen to spread their wings and look for new possibilities and opportunites. As with the other signs in the Chinese Zodiac, the Dragon must make use of all the openings and opportunities that present themselves during this year. Teamwork will feature strongly and the Dragon will progress further and faster in his career if he bears this in mind. The Dragon’s financial situation will indeed be rosy during 2010 with a possible increase in income as well as a sum of money coming to them during the year. They must be careful to be disciplined about spending and not make too many impulse buys! May to August will be lovely months for socialising with friends and possible romantic encounters. Dragons do need to remember that love needs attention and if it is taken for granted, problems can arise. May, September and November see the most interesting career changes. Dragons need to take time during the year to have a holiday or getaway with loved ones – with such a busy year, they must not neglect those who matter to them the most.

Interesting Dragon Facts:
Zodiac Stone: Amethyst
Special Flower: Sweet Pea
Best Hours: 7-9 am
Season: Spring
Horoscope Colors: Black, Gold

《当我们同在一起》

I not really a fan though I did catch the last episode of 《当我们同在一起》. I remembered they show snippets of the photos at the last part where they get together aged and married with kids. Somehow I wonder can my group of close friends can really last THAT long. Nobody knows. Fuck it I am concern about the present than what comes in the future. Cheers to my BITCHES!!

Vogue

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